Forever ago

Does anyone even read this anymore? Sometimes I'll pull my blog page up and see my old posts and have awesome intentions to update, but never do.

I feel compelled to do so now, especially since bar results are currently coming out for the Feb 13 exam.

I see the hits on my page are up...and unfortunately, I usually know what that means.

For those of you that are here because you failed: don't lose hope! Don't lose heart! Stay strong, no matter what number exam this may be for you. I didn't pass the MBE until my 4th try and passed the FL portion on my 5th try. You CAN pass this test! I pray it doesn't take you as long as it took me, but never give up. Always keep trying.

For those that keep up with me from time to time: I am working. Always working. Currently, I'm spending my weekend cleaning and prepping for my jury trial week next week. I potentially have 3 that may go, but I'm only anticipating having to take 1. I'd rather not divulge too much more information if at all possible.

Being a real-life, practicing attorney is stressful. Its stress that I'd gladly take any day over bar stress, but its definitely stressful all on its own. I've made friends with a few of my co-workers and my supervisor is hilarious and ridiculous. When I started, I had a division partner that was very knowledgeable and super nice. It made the transition much easier.

Sometimes I forget where I came from, what it took for me to get here. I get really stressed out and anxious pretty easily and I'm trying to control that better. I know that I have much more stability now than I did with no job, and I try to remember that God has blessed me with this job, at this time, for a specific purpose. I'm trying to remember to keep an eye open for what my purpose is at this time.

Recently I had some physical issues to deal with, and that caused a scare. It dealt with my heart which made it even more stressful! I had to remember I was a strong person. I've gone through a bunch of junk and I needed to suck it up, undergo whatever procedures were necessary and be prepared for whatever lesson I was being taught through it. Thankfully the second procedure I went through showed us that the problem was much more minor than was anticipated, and I'm free to resume life as normal. It was a scary couple of months, but we're praising God all the day long!

My husband and I are also building a house right now, which is so completely dramatic all on its own, and WOAH there is like a million things to do with it. Thankfully, my Mom works in secondary marketing at a local bank and was able to hold our hands through all of this and help us understand all the junk we were having to sign and pay for. There is so much small print and let this be a warning: loan officers don't really pay attention to what you are signing...you better read that stuff carefully. We found a lot of mistakes that could have caused us trouble down the road. With a mortgage, you really have to look out for #1, which is terrifying because you have to sign like a million things that don't make any sense.

So there's the update. Work, heart stuff, house. 6 months in to my job and I still haven't figured out how to balance cleaning and doing stuff during the week or exercising.

Those out there that need to vent, complain, commiserate, hit me up! I've been there, done that. 5 times :)


Attorney at Large said...

I'm glad you're doing well and that you're enjoying practice (it's crazy stress, but the highs are very high). Thanks for updating. :)

Anonymous said...

Dear Summery- I recently found out I failed the NY bar. That's the second I've failed. I initially thought that's it, I hate everything and I'm never taking it again. But then I saw that I missed it by 15 points and I've decided I've worked way too hard to give up now. I just read your blog posts about the bar and it brought me to tears because I feel like your blog really spoke to me. I take so much comfort in knowing I'm not the only one going through this and it can be overcome. I tried clicking on your "email" link but it wouldn't show anything. Would you mind lending me some guidance on how you got through it? If so, what is your email address? Thanks <3

AC said...

@Attorney at Large: thanks girl!! glad to put my brain to good use :)

@Anonymous: feel free to email me!! My address is summeryjudgment@gmail.com. Looking forward to hearing from you!

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I, for one, am regularly reading this blog so don't ever think that there's no one who loves knowing your thoughts and stories. We miss your updates so please drop by from time to time.

Jewels said...

Please don't stop blogging, I just discovered your blog today by random "bar exam" searches and read about your adventures, trials and tribulations. I'm 33, married, working, and working law student about to enter 4L year increasingly becoming nervous about the bar exam in July 2014. Skated by most of law school being older (wiser or just a better bull*** artist?) because of being a working student and I know that will come due next summerl. I believe that we all have a path in life and your blog just spoke to me to keep plugging along even though some days you just want to throw in the towel.
~New fan, Julia in Maryland

Jewels said...

I accidentally deleted my comment....
Pleas don't stop blogging, I it discovered your blog today and really appreciated your honesty and willingness to share your experiences. I'm a 33 year old married, working, evening law student about to enter 4L year. Recently become increasingly nervous about the July 2014 bar exam as I have skated by most of law school (older and wider, or perhaps just a better BS artist?) and I know cutting corners may come due next summer during bar prep. Your blog really spoke to me and I appreciate all of it.
~New fan, Julia in Maryland