9.10.2011

So silent!

Wow, this blog has been needin' some love! Not a lot has been going on, just working and trying not to panic.

I had my first panic attack last week, and I realized I've been absolutely stressed about finding out results. I didn't realize it, but I was. I've been told, in no uncertain terms, that I will be fired if I don't pass. Which is....whatever. I get it. I didn't think they'd give me a fourth try. But the fact that I will lose not only a good paycheck every month, but really good insurance for my whole family, is kinda terrifying. And where the heck will I find a job?

Its a scary thought.

In the meantime, I started working at the monogram shop again on Saturdays. Its been good to get a little extra money. BC got approved for his financial aid, and we got that money in last week too.

I've been reminded over and over again that God will take care of us. I've been trying to refocus my mind and my thinking to remember that He will not forsake us, and He will take care of us. Remember the lilies of the field, I try to remind myself. See how they spin. They are provided with food, water, sunlight. Even when I get freaked out, and Satan tries to make me think I'll never account to anything worthwhile in my life, I remember that God has a great plan for me, lawyer or not. I'll stay faithful despite the results. I've lived through it twice, I can live through it a third time if necessary.

SO--in the meantime, I've been cooking and baking some delicious things. Its been a good outlet for me, and BC is a willing participant! I've created a separate blog to share some yummy recipes for people to check out. Its called See.Try.Eat. So go check it out!

2 comments:

Amie said...

xoxoxo

sending you tons of good thoughts and fairy dust.

Legally Fabulous said...

ughhhh. I'm not ready. I think at this point I just never want to find out.