I've been without social media for like a week.

I feel like I live in the African Congo.

I broke today and logged into Facebook and Twitter. BECAUSE I JUST CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.

I'm trying to stay super patient and be willing to accept whatever happens next week. NEXT WEEK. I WANNA DIE.

I've basically given myself two weeks to know everything in the universe. That's horrible to admit and if you're thinking "she's gonna fail again" well...I can't say I blame you. Cause I've thought it a lot too.

Anyway, I needed to be in touch with the world. I needed to feel like people haven't forgotten about me.

I don't know if I can actually express in words how ready I am to move on with my life. Anddddd I guess I just did.


K said...

You aren't forgotten. You are missed. You are in everyone's very best lovely thoughts.

If you need anything or if I can do anything (even if you just want to talk about something, ANYTHING other than the damn test or be mean or scream or whatever), don't hesitate to let me know. xoxo.

Jenna Renee said...

OMG, I know exactly how you feel. I have been off facebook for almost 2 months now and it's like I'm on my own little island and so disconnected. I feel like Tom Hanks in Castaway. WILSON! WILSON!

Anonymous said...

I don't know you, but I just wanted to write to say BREATHE!! You have got to stop beating yourself up and psyching yourself out. If you are still preparing ... Can I ask if you've thought about counseling? I'm not a Christian so I don't know for sure, but I always assumed churches provided resources like that for free. If not, maybe see if there are free community resources through the health department. You are doing everything right, but it sounds like some stress and anxiety management is in order. It doesn't matter how much you know if you are too overwhelmed to get it on paper come test day. Try some calming breathing exercises, get a professional to help you work through your anxieties, and remind yourself that you ARE capable. You WILL pass if you just remember to breathe. You've already passed one part. Go knock the other part dead. I am rooting for you!!!

Lisa said...

Oh how I can relate to you in reading this blog. All the way! I took the bar four times before passing. Thank you for letting all that raw emotion hang out. That takes a lot of courage.