I keep thinking about what its going to be like.
When July 28th rolls around, when I hear that time is up. When Question #100 has been answered for the third and FINAL time in that two day timespan.
When I'm driving back to the hotel, thinking that all I can do now is wait.
When I go to sleep like that night, knowing its all over.
When I wake up and wander out to the beach...lay on the sand and let the sound of the waves completely take over my thoughts for the first time in three years.
When I get back to my house and put away all the bar review stuff, up in the closet, and completely out of sight and out of mind.
When I get to go back to work and actually WORK...because I'm *gasp* actually looking forward to it.
When I get my results...
Its all a bit overwhelming. Now that I'm not working, I feel a load off my shoulders and I can concentrate on all this like I'm supposed to. But beyond that, in 41 days, just 41, my life will be so incredibly different. 41 seems so short. Three years ago, June/July 2010 seemed like an eternity away. And now, here it is. I can't believe how fast time has flown. And while all this is incredibly frightening, a couple of times today while I was reading, I just stopped and thought--this is actually completely doable. Yes, it is three hours of essays followed by 100 MC. And yes, there is another day of 100 MC, morning and afternoon. And yes, my head is going to explode with all this information. But this is totally doable.
And I'm going to do it.